Day 188- pick Me, pick Me

“For we know, brothers and sisters, loved by God, that he has chosen you …” 1 Thessalonians 1:4 (NIV)

I stand with my back against the school’s red brick wall, my woolen plaid skirt scratching my legs even though I have on my best cable-knit tights. Trying not to look desperate, I secretly pray I won’t be the last one chosen for the team that morning.

It is recess time and kickball is my classmates’ game of choice. Names are called. As I look to the captain pointing and choosing kids, my heart’s cry is simple, “Pick me! Pick me!”

I sit in sixth hour a few years later awaiting the end-of-day announcement of the homecoming court nominees. Earlier that crisp autumn day, the lunchroom had been all abuzz, a whirlwind of activity: scribbled ballots and scrambling beauties seeking votes. Now that the folded papers are tallied and the results are being read, my heart’s cry remains the same, “Pick me! Pick me!”

Throughout much of my early life I desired nothing more than to be wanted. Yet, at many junctures my heart repeatedly felt rejection as someone else was chosen instead of me. It wasn’t until late in life that a wonderful truth was shared with me.

I am already chosen. Already loved.

1 Thessalonians 1:4 nails it. “For we know, brothers and sisters, loved by God, that he has chosen you.” (NIV) We are loved by God. He’s already picked us.

So there is no need to hope and wish and cross our fingers for good luck. We won’t be left standing against a wall, unloved and passed over for someone with more skill, better looks, more money,a better job, another race or more brains. We are the objects of our Savior’s love and nothing we do will change His feelings for us.

I had to cling to the very words of God. I had to let them be louder than the voices from my past or the jeers of the present or even my own negative self-talk that told me that i’m not worthy, not loved, not _________ enough.

I am the one He is pointing at, in front of the whole wide world’s schoolyard, boldly declaring both now and forever, “This is My heart’s cry: I choose you!”

We expend so much energy trying to be accepted and loved by our spouses, our significant others, the people we love that sometimes dont love us at all but we continue to try to no avail and are frustrated by the lack of reciprocation. We say, “Ive given everything and it counts for nothing.” When the truth stands clearly before us. Theres only one who thinks that we are worth giving everything for….God. He already has given everything for us. before we even got here on this earth. And the unconditional love that we crave so desperately for….the fidelity that we so desperately need….the security of knowing that SOMEONE loves us enough to never walk away no matter what…..can NEVER be found in another human being…..it can only be found in Him. Heed my warning, trust human hands with a fragile heart and it is guaranteed to be proundly broken….only the Creator of that heart knows how to properly protect and handle it. you want safety? Put it in the hands that created it.

Dear Lord, help me erase the negative thoughts that run through my mind at times, making me feel unloved and rejected. Remind me that I am chosen and dearly loved both now and forever. Be the love of my life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

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